This is just a post 

to rant about how ridiculously bored I am. I’m doing this co-op/internship thing during the day that I have to do as part of school stuff before I can graduate in two weeks. Classes ended when APs did last week and I have been utterly useless at home since then. I’m just so bored and I’m just annoyed with myself for not having a life and I just want to go out and have fun but I have no idea how. And I seem to never have any friends who are available but at the same time I think it’s just that I don’t try hard enough to meet up with them to hang out. Besides, I still haven’t gotten my license so I can’t go anywhere although I’m not sure I would be able to if I did anyway since my parents are slightly paranoid about teenage driving. It’s just all ugh. I don’t even know how to find a job, where to start, how to go about it, etc. Somebody help me so my next three months aren’t all like this alskdfjdalfj

I really like boys’ handwriting. I like seeing the scruffy scratchy letters over the bubbly too-perfect lettering girls so often have. There’s a practical playfulness that seems to me shows their wandering and creative thoughts that are just cool. Maybe I just want to be a guy. Or maybe I’m craving a boyfriend like I am almost every day. But I guess what I’m trying to say is that sometimes you don’t have to be neat and perfect because the character-filled scratches can convey even more. Imperfections are what make things interesting and they’re just as pretty as anything else though it is often hard to tell right away. Just my running thoughts.

framesjanco:

i have this unexplainable complex where my self-esteem is about as nonexistent as it can get but at the same time i’m in love with myself and feel superior to a lot of people

#so true it’s not even funny

"It’s the oldest story in the world. One day you’re seventeen and planning for someday. And then quietly and without you ever really noticing, someday is today. And that someday is yesterday. And this is your life. We spend so much time wanting, pursuing, wishing - but ambition is good, chasing things with integrity is good, dreaming. If you had a friend you knew you’d never see again, what would you say? If you could do one last thing for someone you love, what would it be? Say it, do it. Don’t wait. Nothing lasts forever. Make a wish, place it in your heart. Anything you want, everything you want. Do you have it? Good, now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle is going to come from, the next memory, the next smile, the next wish come true. But, if you believe that it’s right around the corner, and you open your heart and mind to the possiblity of it, to the certainty of it, you just might get the thing you wished for. The world is full of magic, you just have to believe in it. So make your wish, do you have it? Good. Now believe in it with all your heart."  - The ending quote of One Tree Hill (via jhutchss)

"It is dreadful when something weighs on your mind, not to have a soul to unburden yourself to. You know what I mean. I tell my piano the things I used to tell you."  - Frederic Chopin (via quote-book)